So much of what I read crosses paths with God. The God of my childhood. The God of my children’s Catholic school educations. The God that can put up barriers as soon as his or her or their name is spoken. But still I seek out what I am reading. Because I tell you I […]
Category: Fear
Tired of Traveling Alone
We are ghost and shadow steeped in skin too hot to drink yet cold to the touch. I read a blog called the 27 powers. I don’t know what the 27 powers are. I have 27 powers. I can see too much. But I can’t see the whole story. […]
Not Alone Enough
Lately I’m stuck on a phrase that isn’t helping me. Have you heard of the idea that we are making it up as we go along? We are making it up as we go along. We are making the coffee and toasting the bread and waking the offspring. It is winter time. Given a day […]
A Full Day’s Work by 9am
Yesterday I wrote a Facebook post about how parenting is hard, and I asked people to compliment a parent even if the only compliment you could come up with was about their shoes. Because who doesn’t love shoes? I made sure to note that I was not having a hard time parenting at that exact […]
The Not-Striving Place
Lately I yearn to be done with striving. Wouldn’t it be nice not to strive, I think. Just who am I striving for? Often I find myself striving for my family. And this is good except when it isn’t. Except that they all can strive for themselves. When my tween is sick and her teacher […]
Macalester Blues
I saw a man at the grocery store with a Macalester baseball hat on. Brand new. Brilliant royal blue with the college name in orange. The grey-haired man wore glasses. I gasped as I saw the hat, so relieved to see one of my people in the upscale-grocery store. “You’re wearing a Macalester hat?” I […]
Full of Summer
It’s August 10th, and summer is not slowing down or cooling down. This is always the time of year when I’m both sad that the school year looms ahead and I’m also losing my mind because summer is not slowing down or cooling down. I’m frantically creating memories for my rapidly growing children while barking […]
Ask and the Teacher Shall Appear
I’m always looking for teachers. I always think the next wise person is right around the corner. Heck, I interview experts for a living. Even as I know my own expert lives right in side of me, I still continually ache for an outsider to help light the way to me. To my interior self […]
Saying Yes
Today I said yes. I said yes even though I usually say no to going to the water/amusement park with my husband and kids. I said yes because they are growing up at warp speed right now. I said yes because I am growing up at warp speed right now. Say […]
A Look Back with a Glimpse Forward
I haven’t sent out my annual letter yet, the one I tuck in with the holiday photo card. It’s all about bliss this year, but I keep thinking about what I left out. I love honesty in a synopsis, and my letter is truthful. I can say the year was grand, that I was able […]