Not Sleeping

The endings pile up and I lay awake at night and think about faith. Not faith in a specific God, but faith that all will be well enough. That I will let go of the outcomes for my kids and they will fly well enough, fly away from me. My oldest stretches and leans away […]

Now

Now By Nancy Schatz Alton   I’m on the edge of something. Its curves lead to my flaws, the messes I’ve made, the ruptures followed by repair.   I’m dancing to Prince. My youngest returns all notes with her perfect pitch We’re weaving a story out of song.   One of my oldest friends hands […]

Joy

I’ve surrounded myself with pictures of joy. As I sit at my desk, within my line of vision are pictures of people I love smiling with so much joy. My mom, my dad, my husband, myself, my girls. My mom in her 20s, hands on her hips, looking straight at me in the same manner […]

Willipa Bay

Every time I land on the Washington coast, there I am: young, seeing the Pacific for the first time. The second time. The third. Every time. How I used to need the Harvard T-shirt bought at a garage sale. How I’ve always had a book with me. Reading: trying to find the answers. Answers. Whatever […]

Startled by Grace

To live is so startling it leaves little time for anything else. —Emily Dickenson Isn’t this how life feels? So often I just feel startled. Like when I walk into book club and am bombarded with the news that an acquaintance has cancer. Then I’m hurtling back and stumbling forward. And eating way too much […]

Morning Song

Gratitude slams into me. It arrives when I’m driving KK to school and we’re stopped at the stoplight. The light is perfect, morning blue as the sun rises with the electrical wires crisscrossing across the scene. KK snaps a picture of the moment and shows me the birds on the wire: “Birds.” She’s joyful and […]