My daughter brought me a song. My Kk handed me a song called “Flaws.” I use it to crack myself open. I listen to the acoustic version and I cry. I cry to touch that place in me that I don’t have access to because it’s deep and scared, scared that someone will see […]
Category: Zen
Why
Shhhhhhh…I figured out a secret. Is it the secret? Come closer. Or not, because I like to shout. I’m not going to change. While continually changing. So much of me wants to keep throwing profound statements at you. But I’m looking at a Carl Richards drawing that says: WHY. Why do you do the things […]
On Tears
“I can’t even control my own starving.” –Melissa Stein The approach to the full moon pressed against me & came calling & asked me what I’m scared of. I’m scared of what’s next after finally learning how to love my children well. I’m afraid I’m allergic to dairy & my cheese consumption is feathering my […]
How long?
How long have you wanted to love yourself with a vastness that replicates oceans?
Is It Raining Where You Are?
Lately it’s raining people here. As in I am meeting with so many people as I explore where I am at and where I’d like to be eventually. I’m here to tell you that people are gracious in their sharing. That asking how they got where they are is a nice question. And that I […]
God: What a Popular Topic
So much of what I read crosses paths with God. The God of my childhood. The God of my children’s Catholic school educations. The God that can put up barriers as soon as his or her or their name is spoken. But still I seek out what I am reading. Because I tell you I […]
What do you need?
Everyone should sit firmly anchored in the place where there is no better and worse. ~ Kodo Sawaki It’s hard to feel anchored as the year turns, as the rain returns, as the unexpected snow disappears. The past tells a story we remake again and again. We tell it today to help ease our pain. […]
Tired of Traveling Alone
We are ghost and shadow steeped in skin too hot to drink yet cold to the touch. I read a blog called the 27 powers. I don’t know what the 27 powers are. I have 27 powers. I can see too much. But I can’t see the whole story. […]
She’s Turning 14
You know what? When your daughter’s almost 14, there no holy crap she’s a teenager. There’s more, oy vey with a swear word in between she’s almost ready to leave. Except she’s not. She’s still her baby self when she’s sick, especially on the weekends when she’d like to be hanging out with her best […]
Break into Blossom
Do you ever think about the fact that the older we become, the more like a collage we are? And have you weaved that in with the idea that spinning toward the positive with every word you speak can really unravel a bad day? Yes, I’m in poetry speak mode today. But I just read […]